This about sums it up.

"For a time I thought there was a thief among us
I thought I'd track him down but prior to my pursuit
The smoke had cleared and to my disbelief
There was no thief cause it was me
That lost you

I guess it’s safe to say you’re never coming back
And I understand why you wouldn’t want to
I guess it’s up to me to find a way to get to you

And there’s just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I’ve made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me

And I can’t see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I’m so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining?


And there’s just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all of this I’ve made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me

I guess it’s safe to say you’re never coming back"

I couldn't quite find the words to sum it up, but then I heard this song. It sums it all up, everything. The entire of my last year. If my 2008 were a song it would be There Was No Thief by Relient K.
Shit.